I just dont get it

I have spent hours a day. Hell... I've waisted hours a day. Hours, hours, and more hours. In the lab, on the patio, in my dreams, on dial, ... and ive gotten nowhere. Ive gotten better, but ive gotten nowhere. Its just so tuff for me to comprehend that A man of my kind, that has so much to give, has failed in being given the opportunity to do so. Shit, I was 16 years of age when I made the move of my life. Never have I regretted that particular move. Hell, I was pursuing in what I believed was right. To me, it was right to fight. Fight for the things that were worth your dime fighting for. I was fighting for something much more beyond physical. Something so special, so life experiencing, so beautiful, something the english language can not define. Here I find myself today, knowing I've done everything in my power to get where I need to be. I mean lets be real, what more need I to do? Yet a man of soul, a man of belief, a man of 6 feet in height... has no problem with letting a tear run down from his eye. A tear... yea, a tear... Just one will do. One that signifies one million struggles. And one million opportunities. The fact is, I dont work this hard for me, I work this hard for you. Your blurred vision that I hope to one day make disappear. But in the mean time, I will spend these next few days in the lab continuing to try n figure this out. More like rehab, for when I come out successful, I will conquer something you wish you had. And all I can do then... is shed a tear. Yea, a tear.