I was once a boy that had a knack for being insecure. A boy that went through his everyday life, thinking that all his fantasies would never be true. A boy that wasn't sure if he'd ever know what "love" is, or let alone, commit adultery. 5 years later, in a cold world, in an economic struggle, in a world filled with negative energy, he finds himself... at peace.
See the transition was not easy. Everyday I would wake up, feeling empty, feeling anger at myself, knowing that something was missing. At the time I was in a "relationship", in which I was in just because it was "the thing to do". Such a young pity age I was in, and yet I knew what I wanted in life. Ill tell you in detail how this dream differed all began.
See I was a Freshman in high school at the time. My sister who was a senior at the same school worked at Chuck E Cheese. At this local CEC she had a co-worker in which she introduced me to. From this day forward, my life transitioned to an abstract one dimensional world. I knew what I wanted, and I was determined to get it.
A year went by and I was finally able to reconnect with this woman, we were both single at the time and always knew that we had a thing for eachother. The moment of clarity was at ease, I fell in to the arms of a woman. What made this person different was unexplainable. And that is the beauty of love... You can not explain it. Theres no clear reason why you chose to be with that one soulmate, you just know when you meet them.
Days went by, she became accustomed to my family, as I became accustomed to hers. She had me doing things I never thought I would do. However she always had me on the right track. I never missed a beat. I was on top of things... school, work, responsibilities, safety, health etc. I never in my life wanted to please someone, the way I wanted to please her. I... was in love.
To love someone unconditionally is one of god's spiritual gifts we take for-granted. The age difference never played a roll. Every night I would say my prayer for thanks, for my family, and for US. Why might you say she saved the man's life? She didn't put on her cape, and defeat my enemies. She did not carry a weapon with her that would require her using to save my life. She did not give me an allowance that would pay off my debt. She did not give up one of her kidneys to give to me (although she would have). What she did was something much more beyond that...
She gave me an Identity
She gave me Peace of Mind
She made me a Man
No man on planet earth will ever love her the way that I do. All I can do is hope that they admire what they have, and admire what they can loose. No man will ever speak highly of her the way that I will. No man will ever understand her, the way I still do.
GOD BLESS
What do I owe you for this latte?
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